Yikes!

Well, my delinquency in life has led me to this. I have a terrible confession to make, and with it, I ask you to all hold me to account. Nag, scream, yell, cry, do anything you can to hold me to account… I’ve gained 15 pounds since the wedding. 15 friggin’ pounds, without trying even!! Now, I’ll admit, I’ve been a lot more lax about eating, and a lot less stringent about working out, but seriously, 15 pounds!!!

Here’s the deal. I don’t want to be fat. I don’t want to look in the mirror and feel awful about the way I look. I understand that this may be perceived as ‘hard on myself’, but I’d really just like to like how I look AND how I feel. I need to regroup on the eating front, I know that. That’s where things tend to go off the rails. I just need to muster the will power to do it. Especially this time of year.

Also, as an outcomes oriented human being, I do well with numbers. Last week, I had my annual check up. I got a number. 50. Uh huh, 50. That’s how many pounds my doctor would like me to lose before I even THINK about getting pregnant. Now, don’t take that the wrong way, I’m not thinking about it now, it’s still at least 2 years down the road, but seriously, 50 pounds. Yikes. At least it’s goal, I guess.

Back on the rails as of today, if I can make it through the Holidays, I’m pretty sure I can make it through anything. Perhaps it’s a good thing those shortbread cookies got stolen from our backyard.

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3 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. janiceathome
    Dec 15, 2010 @ 16:51:54

    Okay – I am with you. I want to lose 15 (damn middle age.) First things first, perhaps we should plan a schedule and hold each other to account?

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  2. Nicole Caron
    Dec 15, 2010 @ 17:12:29

    Hey lady! Though you may not have been writing a lot lately, I love what I’ve read and I’m *so* right there with you, especially after having another babe. I’d say I’m 50 from my goal as well and have decided that after nearly a year of devoting all my energies to the kids particularly miss É who was born on Jan. 8 of this year, that 2011 is going to be my year to refocus on me. I feel the same way as you about looking in the mirror – if I could just get through the day not wanting to say “gross” to myself when I look in one that would be a real step in the right direction. Perhaps we can stay accountable to one another? I know you can do it! You are a strong and confident woman with the world in the palm of her hands! xo

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  3. bikiniorbust
    Jan 02, 2011 @ 02:31:44

    So how did the holidays go? Are you hanging in there? You’re doing awesome by the way. The first step is knowing where you want to go!

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